Friday, September 28, 2007

"peace" of mind

finally i spoke with the dr yesterday. of course i had to wait all day for the phone call so by the time he called back i was shaking, sitting on a pins and needles sofa. apparently, some of the babies blood cells were backed up into my blood. of course, what happened is extrememly rare and there is not much of an explaination as to why it happened. this is a mystery to my dr, and even more confusing to me. usually, this happens when there is RH dis-ease present. So I've racked my brain with could i be rh neg and not know it? I tested positive!
Then the other indication for fetomaternal hem. is an abdominal trauma. The dr asked me if I had any kind of injury. Well, the last few weeks I felt like humpty dumpty, but there was no great fall. I was active, I carried groceries, I vacuumed, cleaned but nothing that I can recall.
I still have 2 more wks until I go back to the dr, and then the specialists. Hopefully, there will be more tests back to get the full picture. Having some news has been therapuetic for me. Although I admit it has added to my obsession in a way, I am researching all I can about it. Each year, 26,000 American women experience this nightmare and there is so little research about it. As each hospital is different, there is not any universal protocol for stillbirths. I don't see myself going back into healthcare any time in the future (thought i did!), but it is something I cannot stop to investigate. There has to be more we can do to stop this or at least identify why instead of sending parents home to go crazy wondering.

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