Aunt Flo is in the house!

Thankfully, it's the last day of the worst year. I have never been so eager to say good riddance! Yes, there have been other years I would never want to relive but this has got to be one hell of an exception. Somehow, it all feels like a bad dream.

As the headline says- AF is back in the house! She's finally made her appearance for the first time in one year. It's so strange to not have a period for a whole year. I don't know how they've created a pill that puts off periods for months. No one likes Aunt Flo, but she's part of being a girl! It was a nice vacation to not have one, but I have to say it is good to have her back. It is a sign that my body is moving on.

The cramps have been brutal and it was somewhat of a reminder of labor pains. No matter how I try to escape it, memories flow back at some point of my day everyday. In the hospital the nurse talked to me about post traumatic stress disorder since I was having bad nightmares when I would cramp up post partum. That's when the Zoloft promotion came into play. I was told that taking the little blue pill would not only cure my physical aches and pains but also that "shell shocked" feeling. Well, sorry to tell them but I am surviving without it.

As for the weight loss mission: I did great on Sat- Dh and I went to the gym. Again I did about 30 min of eliptical then 3 sets of legs and some abdominals. As for food- I ate yogurt, went to sweet tomatoes and loaded up on salad, then I don't think I ate very much that evening.

Sun- Lost another lb because I ate nothing at night. Today was the slip up. Started the day out with yogurt, then mahi sandwich for lunch- I did not ea the bread but I did eat fries, drank a bloody mary (way too much sodium), then a draft beer, and for dinner ate chinese (again the sodium) mostly it was veggies and chicken but I did eat some rice. the slip up was the chocolate candies someone brought from Brazil ugh! I can't believe I am saying this but the sugar was awful after going days without eating it.

I find that AF really can sabotage a diet. Whenever she arrives it's a mad craving for chocolate in dangerous doses (maybe along with chocolate's evil bf salt!) my appettite becomes ravenous for carbs, esp pasta! Even drinks can be dangerous. Usually I try to avoid alcohol at this time because where there is AF, there is a tendency for excess. Balance is the key- even on the

Aunt Flo's plane was highjacked

It's been a while since I have had the time to think about my problems since so many others around me are going through some sort of a challenge these days. I've said it before and I say it again, I'm so looking forward to letting go of 2007. Yes I would chalk it up as the worst year ever.
Since the birth, I've felt like a visitor in my own body. It's not just the extra 30 pounds, it's been Ibs, joint pain, and possible thyroid problems. I'm not sure what to expect next. I was expecting to see aunt flo by now, but she has still not arrived, even 2 wks after the milk dried up, no arrival. I have been told that it is normal- here we go with that word- to not have a period for up to 4 mos and sometimes even longer.
I've been feeling that impeding sense of doom that AF was on her way in, the crampy feeling, the back pain, skin changes, the bitchiness- overwhelming desire to go coco for cocopuffs j/k! I know the tide is rolling in, but no sign of her. DH suggested that I go buy a test, but i am not sure I want to know...I'm just not ready- mentally or physically.


Of course, if i am i will make immediate changes in my life as i did before, but i will be a fanatic and i cannot help it. call me crunchy- but after what i went thru it's going to be an organic diet with no exceptions. i also plan on having a fetal heart monitor and very frequent ultrasounds.
a friend of ours is having her baby today. she is 10 days past her due date.i cannot believe how many times they sent her home. sorry, but if it was me, i will threaten to induce my own labor in the parking lot- see how fast they WILL induce! sadly, i cannot go near that hospital to see her, it just freaks me out.